I used to believe in ‘the universe’. That through manifestation and visualization techniques I could get what I wanted from life. That there was no right or wrong, good or evil, everything was permissible. All was love…
But that mindset (which is all it really was) stopped serving me when the weight of my sins would creep in.
My college years were marked by premarital sex which lead to the abortion of my first child.
I thought I could erase all my bad behavior by choosing not to think about it.
I was wrong.
Then Christ stepped in.
Realizing I had hurt my own baby, flesh of my flesh, showed I was irredeemable. I was a murderer who was undeserving of ever having another child. God was perfectly justified to scorn me eternally for what I had done.
BUT GOD sent his only begotten son so that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
It took years of Jesus perusing me to finally believe in the power of his forgiveness.
Christ forgave me!
He showed me mercy when I deserved none.
Just the thought of his Grace makes me want to kiss the ground!!!
After traveling in darkness for so long, I can actually appreciate the light! I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that there is a God who loves me.
I am free from guilt and shame and walking in the same mercy he offers everyone.
I would not be the woman I am today without him!
Thank you Jesus!!!
XOXO,
Clark